How Are You?

I was on my way to pick Ella up at VBS today, and started to panic. Just a little. I was on my way to a different church in the area and realized that I could run into people from our church that had caused it’s demise. Yes it is a small town, and even smaller churched group.

I was thinking how would I respond to that question now? How are you? Back in January, I remember thinking, “please don’t ask me.” I didn’t want to respond to them harshly, or bawl my eyes out on a Sunday morning. I also remember, “please ask me,” I wanted to know that they actually cared about me the way that I did them. I would like to think that God has brought us through the worst of times, but only He knows. Today I would have to say “I am well.” I have 4 healthy, beautiful children, a man that loves me, and the sun is shining.

There’s still tears when I consider how life now is not what we expected it would be, and the friendships that are gone. Next month marks 6 years in Utah, 6 years of trials, 6 years of growth, 6 years of being a stay at home mom, 6 years of sorrow, 6 years of leaning fully on God, 6 years of God’s grace in our lives. We expect to “know fully” how God is using this time in our lives, but for now, being patient in Him is where we stand.

I am so thankful for the community that I have found here – with you. Some of you I know better than others, but yet I know that I have a friend in you. Thank You. It seems so minor, my blog, posting what I’ve been sewing, and pictures of my kids, but being creative has been so therapeutic for me. And finding friends where I am, has been so necessary. (I have been home without a car for the most part, Joe had been working from home and sharing a vehicle was the more financially responsible thing to do.) And I have been on Facebook reconnecting with friends from college and high school that I never would have imagined connecting with again. Remember how I said “I started my blog to connect with others and promote my etsy shop?” Well I still haven’t sold a ton on esty, but I have totally connected with others, and I am a blog believer! We do have friends here, it is just different when we see them on occasion instead of weekly at church, everyone has spread out to other churches.

I pray that you are blessed – whenever you read this.

By |2017-02-06T09:19:17+00:00June 18th, 2008|Me|6 Comments


  1. Amy June 18, 2008 at 3:28 pm - Reply

    Love you Amy!

  2. Mama's Losin' It June 18, 2008 at 8:32 pm - Reply

    I feel the same way about my blog. I’m home all day every day with the kids and it provides very needed adult interaction that usually keeps me smiling. I love my bloggy friends!!

  3. natalat June 18, 2008 at 9:52 pm - Reply

    Thanks for being real about where you are. It is good to recognize how far you have come and still understand, at least partially, what lies ahead. Keep fighting the good fight, I believe you are on the front lines where you lives, continue to live out what he has called you to for this time.
    Love you!

  4. No Crying Mama June 18, 2008 at 10:18 pm - Reply

    oh I have so been there! 3.5 yrs after being ungraciously let go from a ministry job, I still dread situations where I run into people. mostly they are fine, but there are still a few that avoid talking to me and making eye contact…and it still hurts. but, i’m thankful i can look back and appreciate where I am today and that experience is a part of where i am today.

  5. Tipper June 20, 2008 at 7:52 am - Reply

    Oh Amy I so know how you feel. Wanting them to ask-not wanting them to ask-mad if they do-mad if they don’t. I -like you- have found friends in blog land do help so much. Makes you realize people do care even if you don’t see them face to face. I wish I was as far along as you on the forgiving-I’m just not there yet. See you are a role model and a friend.

  6. Jaimie June 21, 2008 at 10:02 am - Reply

    I love this blog Amy! It touched my heart. I too have found a community of friends on here. It is a blessing to have other people to connect to who can share in the joys and struggles of ministry, mommyhood, and life. I love reading your blogs each week.

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